Encouragement and Enthusiasm

Last summer, I was very motivated to study Mechanics of Deformable Bodies for real. I mean, I did not really learn anything last semester. I don’t even understand why for the second time I failed to cast my sponge-like power on the subject. Plus knowledge from it is required in taking up Theory of Structures this semester.

I started but I unfortunately failed. I had a solutions manual (which I call “suman”) and even borrowed complete notes. But to borrow the notes, I have to exchange my suman. T.T
Desperation calls for desperate measures. I exchanged the suman for the notes. I planned to pattern my learning to that notes. I had no choice and no one else to borrow notes from. I had it for a week. Darn deadline! While the suman was borrowed the whole summer! I actually lost motivation to study it again and didn’t finish copying notes. Partly irritated to.my lack of motivation.

This semester, again, I am fired up to make it big time in all my subjects and study like a robot. I want the academic scholarship even just 50% off the tuiton. It approxomately is worth PhP 20000. I want to invest it in my bank account. I don’t want to ask for my parent’s money. I want to earn money myself.
so when I buy something they won’t question it.
Another good things about being a scholar are having good grades and force you to study more than normal.

Studying for me is never a chore. I really have fun learning so it is actually playtime for me. Except last semester where I force myself to study what I don’t understand even a bit of it.

Again, my motivation is starting to wear off its power. Our professor in 4 major subjects is no good. He used to be our prof in our frosh days in CE Orientation. (Yes, he is only one. The same for those four MAJOR subjects) It is like when I see him, I like to ditch my class and just study myself in the library.

My enthusiasm went back when I met again the zealous speaker in a seminar I attended last semester at AdU. Good news is he is going to teach at AdU and we can attend his lectures for free! I learned a lot from him again from that meeting. I was awestruck and inspired. He reminded me why I wanted to be a civil engineer. The sad part is he cannot be our professor this sem.

Our professor at Construction Materials Engineering told us students must train themselves to study alone. We should not just rely on what the professor feeds us. We should also learn to fish. (Yeah I know this is a parable but hey! It really is, uh, essential. Yeah I dunno what the right word is. Forgive me.)

I think I get what he was trying to say. Say, for example, you play 4pics1word. You won’t get the thrill or it will not be fun if we downloaded the cheats or let someone answer it for us to advance on the next round. In that sense, you will eventually get tired and think why in the world you wasted time in it. It feels great if you advanced in the next round without using the coins or the cheats.

Decision Making

Making decisions.

Seems easy but no. Future be ruined by creating wrong ones. It must be taken seriously, as a girl who graduates from being a teen. (I don’t actually care about my age at all.) For (read my previous sentence).

I don’t look like it but I really am future-conscious. I made a big deal about deciding my course, in which I took very seriously, for you see, I want to make it big time. I have a lot of goals to pursue. However,  originally I wanted to be a doctor, a brain surgeon to be exact. I did not pursue it because, I love math and physics. So far, I have not regretted taking up Civil Engineering. It may be a shorter course than pursuing medicine but I think it really is my thing. I just got off last semester due to a common illness among students called “laziness”.

Academics aside, I made a huge decision this June. I have to do it, I think I should, so one will learn. I almost lost my self-respect and pride so to regain it one must learn. Yeah, from your point-of-view I guess it may be selfish. The hell? I wanted to be one for once. It just that I got tired of my old ways and I think one should make the rest of the action. It is a risk at the same time, 50:50 chance, I may lose the bet. I still believe one will get my message as to why the hell I am doing this. Ignorance and “erasing one’s existence” are the actions. Learning important stuffs and sincerity are the answers.

As I said in the previous paragraph, I may lose. All in one snap. I am acting like I don’t care and sometimes I feel like an idiot, looking for “it”. Always looking for “it”. Nothing change at all and it leads to disappointing results. I think I will be like this until one learns or I have given up the idea and move forward. Nonchalantly, I said my farewell in case all things get ruined by my actions.

And hell yeah, I have been vague for the past two paragraphs, I really am sorry.

Enrollment Situations

I am very much excited for the new semester. Well, there is the new me, new subjects to enjoy (yeah I do love learning). I am most thrilled about seeing my beloved friends.

About enrolment, this was probably my easiest. Within 10 minutes, you can finish enrolling provided that you paid the tuition prior the enrollment and you go to school early to avoid long queue for the printing of assessment form. This is the privilege you can get if you are in a block section or a regular student.

As for the irregular students, this was probably the hardest. My friends who are irregular students waited as the clock stroke at midnight on May 27th for the online enrollment or reservation of sections until June 5th. It is the survival of the fittest. The fastest finger wins the trophy. Many got frustrated as their picked sections got by another. Students with ID numbers from 2011-2012 got nervous when the system prioritized students whose numbers start earlier than them and the subjects began to be unavailable or close. Some who went on a vacation thinking they had reserved their sections already had their reservations deleted and opened and grabbed making them start from zero. On June 5, E-learning shut down for “repairs”. Their enrolled subjects got all deleted! Everyone panicked. Many voiced out their frustrations on social networking sites. Eventually, the site came back. Hehehe. Thanks, God.

A year and a half back, I myself was an irregular student. There was no such thing as online enrollment, only online reservation. You had to print this darn mock assessment form before enrolling. When the day of enrollment came, Vee, Tin, Cura, Adrianne and I went as early as 6:30AM to pay our tuition fees to avoid a very long line. Next we went to OZ 202 (which was a building away) for the advising of subjects which I think was very useless as it consumed our precious time especially when the adviser is gay that took us a long time when there were cute guys ahead of us. (Oops! Running sentences there. Hahaha)

Then we joined a long queue of students who encode their subjects personally. When I say long, I mean the queue extends from the end of the fourth floor which I thought never existed to the 2nd floor then enter three darn rooms and occupy the shit 40 seats (and it makes 120 seats thank you very much) to another building’s ground floor.

We suffered third world problems that day: heat, hunger, poverty, thirst, hunger, and overpopulation. Lunch break came but not a drink, not even a bite. It was getting hotter. We have to guard our post otherwise some dude might get it.

Finally we entered CL4, the room where we encoded our sections. But Adrianne and Tin got separated from us! Panic mode!!! We got our sections from Addi. The funny thing was Addi was our classmate just on one subject: Rizal. Hahaha! Adrianne promised to call us up so we could have the same schedules. We did it. But, hey! We were finally enrolled! Yahoo! It was 3:00PM when we finished. Eight and a half hours!!! We are dead hungry and so we we decided to eat at Chic-Boy at UN Avenue. I ate plenty and so were they! Hahahaha!