For you, I am just a word on your sentence.
I am just a mere word in your paragraph.
A single word you never knew a part of your story.
That very word you will forget or will never recognize its worth once you finished using it.
I do not regret ever meeting you.
Thanks for all the lessons and memories you shared with me.
Now I am a sentence. Maybe not for you but for myself.
Your chapter with me is finished. No goodbyes nor see-you-agains. I must do the same.
I’ll continue growing so someday I’ll be more than a chapter and an ending in someone’s life.
Goodbye to you, my chapter!
Posted at 2:41 AM
Gee, this must be The Morning Post instead of The Late-Night Post.
It is torture seeing someone you like likes another.
The horror of what I experienced back then was so bad I wish not to experience it again.
How I wish I never feel that way again.
All I wanted is to be happy.
So I decided, I’d help you. I want you to be happy because you deserve it. But, God, it is heartbreaking.
It is not me. But thank you anyway for making me human again.
Farewell in 7 months!
Posted at 5:40 AM. Have a meeting at 2:00 PM. Good Lord.
There are times, especially lately, I do not feel anything. Or emphatize with anyone.
No feelings. No sadness. No happiness. No regrets. No satisfaction.
Emotionless as a doll.
My love for you wavers.
I don’t know why.
Maybe one day, when we part and finally meet, I would see the answer.
I am not into superstition.
However, lately, I found myself relying on it due to unanswered questions I am dying to know.
I am asking different questions yet same meanings almost every night.
“Should I keep liking you?”
“Should I wait for you?”
“Are you worth the wait?”
The signs are telling me yes. Now it is up to you to make it true.
On my previous post, I declared I’d work as twice as hard.
Judging by my evaluation exams, it seems that I have to work three times as hard.
I am aiming to be a topnotcher so it is logical if I thought getting a passing mark on an evaluation exam is a boo-boo.
I know I am the least candidate in every reviewee’s mind to be their top one. I will never be. I never heard from any of them that they want me to be it. I have to show them a “commoner” like me can so it will engrave on their minds that they can too. With a huge effort and dedication, they can. We can.
The top spot is not just for those who earned latin honors and quizzers only. It is for anyone who is dedicated, ready to sacrifice most of his waking time studying and learning from everyone.
I know the road is a very tough one. But, hey, I am enjoying the journey anyway. Less than a hundred days to go and we will be engineers. A hundred days’re nothing if it were worth the sacrifice.
I study all my might because I do not want regrets anymore. I hope and believe it will be the same for everyone.
“Rooting for the guy I love with someone else… How on earth am I supposed to do that?”
– Kondo Risa, Hatsukoi, Katakoi
Right in the feels. *sobs*
This one shot is probably the closest in my heart right now together with Matryoshka.
While preparing for my next battle, I saw the past conqueror, I was attenuated.
The battle is worth winning for.
But now I think if I deserve such prize.
Hence, I doubled the hard work I put into the preparations before I declare war.
I will win the war. I claim it. The prize is worth it.