Fourth Year Retard Part 1

(This is the first time I am going to use the WP mobile app! Awesome, isn’t it? But hell no I am not going to blog about this app. Hahaha)

Well, I will tell you what? I am now in the middle of brainstorming quirks, tricks and  bombs I am gonna throw on our, CJ and I, event this coming July 24 and 31, whilst trying to do academic things productively and figuring out when will I fold my clothes that are just sitting there in my closet. I am so busy with academics and org stuffs to do personal chores like cleaning my room, trimming my fingernails, and overhauling my closet. I don’t even think I have social life anymore. Well I do have two if you call facebooking ang tweeting socializing.

Nonetheless, I like being busy like hell. I was really, really bored the whole summer that I think I am going to be an idiot if I don’t do mental work. I hate chores. Hahaha yeah I am lazy. I was like, “Give me work!!! Give me puzzles!!” I almost finished my puzzles hidden in my shelves.

I am actually enjoying this pressure, these org stuffs, these projects. Most of them! Hahaha! I make use of my insomnia and get it cured gradually due to mental fatigue.

However, my fun fades away when my terminal disease kicks in, the side-effect of my mental exhaustion. I tend to sleep a lot these days, often daily in most of my subjects. Sometimes, I think I am retarded. I do get retarded at times. It was like part of my brain was shutting down and I was not able to think of tricks to solve a problem smoothly. It was depressing. Especially last Thursday on our major subject, everyone understood the topic whilst I, like an imbecile, still asking my seatmates on how to do the Maxwell Diagram shits. I reckon my friends who look up to me (if they do exist) are beginning to think I am like this due to a certain thing. I assured them not for I really am not.

My status as a student was getting dramatically lower. I am at the nadir of my “career”. I have to remember my goals and the reason I am still a CE student and not shifting to Neurology. (If there were a scholarship for Neurology or just an exchange student, I would grab it! After my board exam though.)

I am telling my scumbag brain to focus. Forcing myself to study is never my style. It will result to maybe good grades but never learn. I want to go back when I was a fresh third year student with too damn high motivation for proving them wrong and get perfect exam scores without even pushing an effort and just review a little. Never cramming but always acts like cramming just to blend with the panicking crowd and not be told “Pakopya naman!” or “Naks di na nagrereview!” or “Talino! Perfect na?” I dunno. I am not really happy when people say that so if you are my schoolmate, never tell me those things I mentioned.

This week is actually our “hell week”. Exams, exams, exams everywhere. I still don’t understand Statics to Mechanics of deformable Bodies. Now we have Structural Theory. It is true what our dear professor in Theory said to us during one of his impromptu-asking-anything moments, “You never learn! Go sit here in front so you’ll learn!” and, “Go back to SRB and MDB! You don’t understand.” I am more than willing to do that but I cannot. One, our family is suffering financial crisis. Two, no time. They have no idea how much I wanted to repeat every subject which I think I have not learned anything a bit with the most awesome professors.

Professors here are not motivating my cognitive skills. Psychological tests all suggest that my cognitive skills are highly exeptional. So why in the world it is dropping? Professors here do teach us but there is something lacking in it…something that makes me enjoy the difficult subjects like a nerd. Exploring. That is the word. I tend to explore and create new ways on solving a problem. I could think of several solutions in one problem. I used to be!!! But they teach us just one way of solving the reactions in a truss. Just the same bookish way the whooooole semester or scool year. Another is my mind is always flying off to somewhere unthinkable. (On the contrary, I have been absent-minded since. Hahaha) And I hate it. Now I do cram! Now, scram! Hahaha

I am trying to gain my dignity back. My place in the bulletin board, the scholarship that only a few know, my promise, my fun. Please pray for my scumbag brain. Thank you very much if you do.


Orgs pt 1.5.1 (with Trixy)

Kanina lang e naka-text ko si Apong Tweezy or “popularly” known as Trixy. Ako lang ang malakas ang loob na tumawag sa kanya noon.

Napag-usapan na naman namin ang orgs… Dahil sa madaldal ako.
Me: Hey, kasali ako sa orgs sa amin, Math at Japan. Ikaw? Ano org diyan?
Trixy: Anak Bayan, Gabriela. Puro activists yan.
Me: Gawa ka ng orgs! Like Tribunit, Tribugay, La Federacion, Lilang Langit, Segunda Katigbak, KingKong!
Trixy: Ew!
Me: Naku si Karen (tibo naming kaibigan) e sa La Federacion at Lilang Langit! Bakla rin iyon! Mas malandi pa kay KP iyon!
Trixy: Naku magwawala si KP niyan! Magkakaroon ng bagong alamat, “Barney and Goliath”
Me: Haha! Barney and Goliath? E si Tupe (classmate namin ng high school na, ugh. Basta, kadiri) at si Karen iyon eh!
Trixy: Si Karen? Barakong Bakla iyon!
Me: Naku salamat sa aking mahiwagang radar at na-detect nito ang tinatago ng baklang iyan! Nagiging bakla iyon pag gabi! Presidente iyan ng La Federacion!
Trixy: Hahaha! Sila ang “Dragong Bakla at Barakong Bakla”
Me: hahaha! Pampelikula! Pag gagawa sila ng Tagalog action movie, ito ang pamagat: “Diligan mo ng Suka ang Uhaw na Lumpia” (credits to Dennis Padilla, narinig ko siya sa Wowowee)
Trixy: Ito pa “Manggang Maasin sa Bagoong Ako’y Namnamin” haha!
Me: Haha! Sequel ng pelikula nila! Gawan pa namin ng title!
Trixy: Haha! Sige ito pa: “Lalaking Magiting Ikaw pala ay Bading”

Haha! Uto talaga kami.

Orgs pt 1.5 (with KP)

Orgs… natutuwa pa rin ako sa pagsali ko sa Japan Org na hanggang ngayon e hindi ko pa alam ang buong name talaga ng org. Haha!

Since lagi kong ka-text ang aking “mahinhin” na kaibigan na si KP (I gave the nickname!) at natutuwa ako sa orgs, tinanong ko siya kung sumali siya sa orgs sa PUP (doon siya nag-aaral)
KP: Orgs? Meron dito! Gabriela, Anakpawis, Lakas Kampi CMD, aba teka, mga party lists ito ah! Haha! Meron dito, accountancy club.
Me: Ngeks! Gawa ka ng orgs diyan. Like “Jake Cuenca’s Wives Society,” “La Federacion” or “Segunda Katigbak: Maria Clara ng Makabagong Henerasyon” panis si Gabriela diyan!
KP: Mas type ko ang Maria Clara ng Makabagong Henerasyon. Ang galing mo magaling ka talaga mag-isip ng orgs!
Me: Ako pa! Eh si Apong Tweezy, saang siya sumali?
KP: Naku e ewan ko doon.
Me: Gawa rin siya ng org like, “Tribu Bugay: Mga Taong Ang wafu e si Bugay” or “Tribunit: Tribu Nerit!” Malaking kalaban iyon ng Segunda Katigbak mo!
(si Bugay at si Nerit ay classmates namin noong high school, basta, isipin mo na lang kung bakit ganun! Haha! Hint: Isipin mo si Tado o si Bentong o si Palito)
KP: Tama! Ang galing mo talaga!
Me: E si Karen? (siya ang tibo namin friend, lagi namin niloloko yun) Baka sa La Federacion iyan? Nagtatransform iyan maging juding pag gabi!
KP: Kagaling ni Karen, nagta-transform! haha!
Me: Oo, e nagtatago lang sa atin iyon!

Disclaimer: Hindi exact ang mga sinabi ni KP diyan. Maaring na-modify sa kadahilanang tinatamad ang tamad na author na i-search pa sa inbox ang mga message. Haha!